I should’ve said something a long while ago about my feelings on this place…
No. I don’t hate this place to my core, hell I’m fine here. I’m not leaving, and I do not side with any person. I rather keep myself on the sidelines than join a war bigger than myself.
But things have… changed.
I’m going to tell my pov of this place as I’ve seen it.
Bronze Era (Mid Spring - Late Winter)
I joined on May 28th, 2021. I was on the wiki long before than without an account. A few months later, I joined discussions and made my first post, a poll about who was your favorite baby Godzilla.
I talked a bit but mostly read on the wiki.
Nothing much happened. I didn’t even know about the Ray stuff until later…
Silver Era (Early Spring-Late Summer)
I became more active around this time, and I started talking more. Made a few people I considered “friends” and had a good time. Despite what was horrible, I kinda enjoyed the drama in a way… and I cherished what was good.
I believe I made my first Garry’s Mod shit post around this time. I had fun scrolling through the block logs to learn history, and I stumbled around with Scribelord to learn about the Wikizilla split… I hate myself for acting like a piece of shit at the time, I still do. I followed what Scribe was doing because I looked up to him as somebody I could trust. I’m not getting into any more of that shit. It’s behind me, and I worry for my own sanity what might happen if I try to say something about it any longer.
Golden Era (Early Fall-Early Summer)
This was my peak on the wiki. It was the time when I truly had fun. I made real friends: Anky, Maki, and others. It was truly fun. The drama was same old same old (I sound like a psychopath for saying I like drama, but… I mean…)
When people were banned, it was usually well deserved and I understood why. Now, the reasonings for bans are still clear, but don’t feel the same.
It was just a really fun time than.
Decline (Summer)
I had a decline of favoritism toward Godzilla. I was getting into FNAF again, and I nearly left the community. I stayed strong, but it was super close to me leaving indefinitely… a hope appeared at the end of summer… a hope that things would get back to normal, eventually…
Post Era (Early Fall-Present)
That hope was a false one. Shortly after Crimson arrived, Anky disappeared. I prayed he would come back, but it’s been over 5 months since…
Crimson brought a friend or two, and other users started coming in. They flooded the chats with reaction images and stuff like “fart” and pretty much still do. And the website became more toxic. Some new users who arrived were horribly toxic and never changed their actions.
Scribelord was banned. Somebody who I used to look up to and considered a friend myself, gone. He didn’t do the right things, but it felt a little discomforting.
The year has progressed, and it’s worse. Goat and Vortex leave before the end of the year, and now little people who were there with me during the Golden Era were still around, and those who were were barely active.
It’s half way through February of 2024, and it’s even worse.
Toxicity is common place, power scalers come in and say “erm Godzilla is planetary level”, and many others left.
February
February… worst month I’ve spent here.
First, Varan acts up in the OTP and gets permanently banned on all of FANDOM (I considered him a great person), than Iguana gets banned for 2 weeks for similar reasoning, M is banned for the final time, and Primus.. He was banned too.
4 people… 4 FUCKING PEOPLE I considered as based people and as people I could trust gone in an instant with a bitter taste in my mouth left out as “They hate me” and “I’m no better than anybody else” and “I don’t deserve anything.”
And to top it all off? I’m depressed, and when all of… that was happening, I was feeling heavily suicidal…
I never disliked this place, but I don’t like it right now either…
This place is a far cry from what it once was and nobody that’s new will ever understand what it felt like to be a Gojipedian in 2022…
This is my thoughts… If you read this all… thank you for understanding.
-Godzillabutnotgod